iridescent thoughts. iridescent people.

Lately I've been thinking way too much about the past and way too much about the future. It's a bit overwhelming.

I went to Rodizio Grill for the first time last weekend and oh my goodness. The second I walked in I was having an anxiety attack.

The salad bar was first. I'm pretty sure I had like 13 different things on my plate when I finished the dance around that ring of lettuce and pasta goodness.

Before I could even finish a third of what was on my plate people were running around throwing pieces of meat at me. I didn't even know what I saying yes to most of the time when they were asking me if I wanted whatever they were serving.

I got to a point where I was staring at the scraps left from the salad bar while eyeing the pork, grilled pineapple and steak headed my way. I almost lost it. Don't get me wrong, everything at that restaurant is so delicious and I had a great time, it was just not an ideal environment for me.

This dining experience has really reminded me of all the thinking I've been doing. The scraps from the salad bar are my past and the delicious meats being carried around are my future. The thing is I don't know why I'm staring at either because I'm not hungry and I don't want to be reminded of what I've already partook of. Why do we waste so much time and energy thinking of what could have been, what was, and freaking out about what's to come? I think sometimes it's important that we just focus on the now. I know that I myself need to concentrate on who I am today and what's going to matter right now. (Of course it's also good to think about the future and plan for it but we shouldn't get carried away and obsess about it.) I feel like we're living in a pretty rushed place in this day and time and life is way too simple to get caught up in all of the useless complicated details.

After that clutter of words, here is my thought for the moment:

Simplify, simplify and simplify.

I've been listening to Hurricane Bell's album Tonight is the Ghost all day long. It's fit quite perfect into my thoughts this week. They've recently released a new song that I am obsessed with. They did a cover of Will You Still Love Me Tomorrow and it's just the best. I think I love it more than the Shirelles classic version.

I apologize if none of this makes any sense. I'm not sure I know how to make sense of my words or thoughts these days.