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I've been standing at the same crossroad for the last few months. The first road to choose from is one that is familiar and I'd have a lot of friends along the way to keep me company during my travels. The thing about this road is that it doesn't lead to anywhere, especially anywhere that I would want to be. The second road is very strange to me and very scary although there's nothing there to be afraid of. It's the unknown that is so frightening to me. Now this road wouldn't be the easier of the two but it's the road that would get me to where I need to be and where I truly want to end up. Decisions decisions.

A couple of days ago I was playing with Lucy* when she said something that really stuck with me...

"I don't like being apart, I like being together."

Now when you first read this you would think she was talking about being with or without someone she loves but that is not the case. Lucy was talking about herself because I was pretending to take her ears and nose off of her face. In my own way I can relate more than ever with that at this time in my life. I feel like for a while I've been "apart" and I've finally said enough is enough and it's time to start putting myself together.

So, I have made what is an incredibly huge decision for me. I've decided to take the second road. Not only have I chosen that road but I have also bravely started walking down it.

I'm terrified.

*In case you don't already know, Lucy is the incredibly adorable three year old that I nanny)