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It's 2011? Weird. So weird.

I feel like 2010 lasted like 3 months but A LOT happened in that 3 months.

I'm so grateful for this new year and just in the first 13 days of it a lot has changed.

I had a really hard time with some things last year, especially things that I could never come to understand. I feel like all of those unknown demons I've been holding onto inside of me have finally shown their faces and now there is nothing left of them to intrigue me so I can finally let go and put them all behind me. I've learned that all of the what ifs in life should only be thoughts passing through, they are never meant to be things to hold onto. False hope has been the death of me these past couple years and I've learned my lesson. I will no longer let other's drag me along and intrigue me with their shallow and false relationships. I'm in no way implying that I am always a saint to others but I'm definitely more aware of my actions now and hope that I'll handle all of my relationships with careful thought to all parties involved from now on.

2010

I moved back to Salt Lake City and have had nothing but love for that decision.

I started a new job nannying for an incredible family that I've come to adore and call my own.

I got my own apartment and have really enjoyed living in solitude.

I visited the urgent care more than I ever have in my entire life and all for the most ridiculous reasons.

2011

I got a dog! That's all that really matters so far this year.

I am so appreciative to all of my friends who pretended to be really excited for me when I excitedly told them I got a dog. Really, thank you.

And to all of those who didn't even try to amuse me....come on.

(Photo cred to the lovely Michelle Cordon Lepinski)

This my friends, is my beloved Bandit.

I got him from some guy on ksl who moved into a place where he wasn't allowed to keep him. Getting dogs from random people is always a gamble but I totally lucked out. Besides from his old name being stupid (Shadow), this dog is the greatest dog ever so far. He's well trained and he just has loved me from the second we met. He's half pomeranian and half mini american eskimo and about a year old so he's over the whole crazy puppy phase. I keep getting comments that he looks like a fox which I LOVE because I've always wanted a pet fox and now I have a dog that looks like a fox so good enough! I just love him and am so grateful I found this little gem.

So, I step forward into this year with a smile and high hopes for more reasons to smile.

I also go into this year with the knowledge that I have a Heavenly Father. For the first time in my life I know without a doubt that I not only have a Heavenly Father but I also am lucky enough to have a brother who is my savior and has made true happiness possible for me. These things did not come to me easily, I spent a long time without them and going back and forth, but everything seems so much easier now and life itself makes a lot more sense. For the first time I just feel like everything is going to be okay and that, I feel, is the best way to start a new year.

I think I'm going to try and start blogging a picture taken with my minolta, a piece of writing, and a favorite song for the day everyday. We'll see if I'm motivated enough to keep that up. For now though, I'm just going to leave you with a good song. This song has really left an impression on me today:

Blue Blood by Foals